i need to stop this.

i need to stop our friendship here.

i need to stop talking to you.

i need to stop it all.

for two reasons.

you’ve broken down a lot of my walls, my defences you’ve destroyed. i’m vuncerable to you and the last time someone meant this much to me, the last time i was this close with someone, the last time i let someone in it ended badly and i don’t think i could handle that right now.

and because if we keep this up. if i keep this up. i will fall for you. and that can’t happen. that’s not even an option but it’ll happen unless we stop.

so i’m sorry. but this is it. at least for a while.

i love you. and goodbye.

i’ve had a wonderful week.

and that’s largely because of you. :)

your cute text messages.

the full on conversation.

having moments. holding hands. rubbing my back. poking. your arms around my waist. just holding me.

staying up late to talk. playing games. joking.

bowling. being secretive. holding me. poking. holding hands. arms around my waist. leaning on each other.

just being.

heck. i think i might just be in love with you.

i had a wonderful day today.

and that was pretty much all because of you. :)

and i get that our moments are our moments and others don’t need to know but sometimes i can’t help but feel that you’re hiding ‘us’ even though ‘us’ isn’t even anything.

Pretty sure…

You were the one who told me I should go on this trip with you. And thats the main reason I put my form in. And bow you’re probably not even going.. I understand and all but it kinda sucks…

Secretly.

 I really want to kiss you…